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Monday, December 28, 2009
Saturday, December 5, 2009
long time, no blog
working 50-55 hours a week can be slightly overwhelming. I know some people work way more than that but sheesh! I feel like I am always going, going, going.
a few random things:
this one time my mom emailed me while I was in Senegal... it was a response to my story about going to Ngor with my host brother and his friends, a trip that could have been a disaster but luckily was great. she said something to the effect of be careful, but the phrase that stuck out to me was, "don't let four months ruin decades of your life." I've been thinking a lot about that this morning. it's been almost two years since I got back from Senegal and I still think about the things that happened there every day. I have made some big life decisions that I think were partially based on my African experiences. I don't think my life has been ruined by what happened, but I think it could be if I let it. I am going through some challenging times right now with school and financials, and sometimes I just feel like there's no way I'm going to figure it out. howwwwever, we all know that I am extremely stubborn AND (trying to be extremely) determined, so I am not going to "let" anything be. I will make the decisions and changes... assertiveness is key. but it's weird how emotional the Senegal experience makes me. sometimes I am really sad, other times I am so angry, lots of times I am upset with myself and think it's my fauly I ended up here. I came home and (as Mom and Dad warned me), I think that was a mistake. I think the things that happened there were terrible and yes, they have affected me a whole lot, but I think that what hurts me the most is that I feel like I gave up.
hmm. I was going to post more about prepping for the holiday season, the process of securing student loans, life in the corporate world, Molly shenanigans... but I think that blurb up there is about enough for now. time for a shower and work.
a few random things:
this one time my mom emailed me while I was in Senegal... it was a response to my story about going to Ngor with my host brother and his friends, a trip that could have been a disaster but luckily was great. she said something to the effect of be careful, but the phrase that stuck out to me was, "don't let four months ruin decades of your life." I've been thinking a lot about that this morning. it's been almost two years since I got back from Senegal and I still think about the things that happened there every day. I have made some big life decisions that I think were partially based on my African experiences. I don't think my life has been ruined by what happened, but I think it could be if I let it. I am going through some challenging times right now with school and financials, and sometimes I just feel like there's no way I'm going to figure it out. howwwwever, we all know that I am extremely stubborn AND (trying to be extremely) determined, so I am not going to "let" anything be. I will make the decisions and changes... assertiveness is key. but it's weird how emotional the Senegal experience makes me. sometimes I am really sad, other times I am so angry, lots of times I am upset with myself and think it's my fauly I ended up here. I came home and (as Mom and Dad warned me), I think that was a mistake. I think the things that happened there were terrible and yes, they have affected me a whole lot, but I think that what hurts me the most is that I feel like I gave up.
hmm. I was going to post more about prepping for the holiday season, the process of securing student loans, life in the corporate world, Molly shenanigans... but I think that blurb up there is about enough for now. time for a shower and work.
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